09-07-2026, Thursday

Before

My mood was neutral. I didn’t feel any intense emotion. And my stress levels were normal too. I had breakfast in the morning around 8 am and I had morning coffee as usual. I didn’t eat or drink anything before listening to the tape, except for some water. I took a shower to feel a little fresh.

I also had a good night’s sleep the previous night (around 7 and half hours) so I was totally awake and fresh for this session.

During

Now this is where things get interesting. The tape session started normally like the other ones, but somewhere along the middle I got completely lost. I have no memory of anything happening. But I also didn’t feel asleep.

I do recall that at the very start of the tape I thought to myself to log some very important information about the session and tapes. An insight that I had, but after the session, I completely forgot about it.

I didn’t realize that it had happened until the very end of the tape when the tape tells you to bring back your consciousness.

After

When the session ended, I felt hyper aware of my surroundings, but my body felt stiff, as if it had been lying there for hours.

Looking though the guidance material, I see that the purpose of this session was to work with your fears. To take something you have negative feelings about and detach yourself from it, but I don’t remember that cue ever coming up or me thinking about any negative feelings or emotions. I think the problem is definitely with my focus. I am starting to have doubts about whether these tapes could do anything for me.

I did use Medito to log my sessions as meditation sessions in my Google health connect app. I don’t know if that’s a good idea. Another thing I realized is that the tapes do require a sort of internal affirmation or mantra before you start, which I had not been thinking about at all.

I am more than my physical body. Because I am more than physical matter, I can perceive that which is greater than the physical world. Therefore, in these exercises, I deeply desire to Expand, to Experience; to Know, to Understand; to Control, to Use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me. Also, during these exercises, I deeply desire the help and cooperation, the assistance, the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom, development, and experience are equal to or greater than my own. I ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires. I now protect myself as may be needed from such influence and reject any source that may restrain me from my stated desires.

Now some places say that this is more of an idea that you need to believe in before you start and the actual words don’t matter, but I will try to memorize this for the next sessions.

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